I've tried to 'walk this off' for a while now.

I realize though in doing so, I'm just hurting my opponents each week who deserve some real material to work with.

I'm going to be stepping out for now from the active roster. If I could remain around the boards to help out here and there, I'd ask that I be allowed, but I need to take some time off.

It could be 2 weeks, 2 months or 2 years at this point. I just have to hop off of these cards so someone respectable can fill my shoes.

I truly thought I had it licked this week. I put up a solid RP I was proud of... but... this 'block' persists... RPing is a chore that I push away until the last minute... hmmmm... I'm pissed at myself. I really am. I don't know why I get no enjoyment out of writing anymore but I don't. It's a really messed up pickle for me. I love dreaming up the stories, the narrative, the 'feel' of it all... but when it comes down to pulling up my socks and doing the grunt work of writing it out... I bail on myself. I just don't want to put my energy into it right now. Not like I have anything better to do... I'm just apprehensive to go 'balls out' anymore on writing. My heart isn't in it. My head is, my wish to stay a part of this community is... but I'm not here. I'm a ghost and phantom right now. I really wish I could stick around in some kind of capacity but I'm not serving anyone well by being on the active roster until I've got my head checked. Whenever I feel the urge and want to write again, I'll come back as someone new and someone different to make sure I can still do it before sullying my name any further.

I truly appreciate a lot of the kind words and support ya'll have given me tover the last couple of months to kinda 'snap' me out of this drought... I just gotta do my own thing for a while and hope that the 'bug' bites me again.

Blessed Be.