I'm glad you found someone else Petey. I know I won't. It wouldn't be fair to any other woman. They could never have my heart.

Ally, I don't really consider myself a gentleman. I'm a good man with a big heart, but I'm also not a very nice man. Its hard to explain, really. I have an explosive anger issue that probably none of you are aware of. If someone triggers it, things don't get pretty. Not physically, I'd never hit a woman. In fact, I'd like to take those that do and put them in Duke's torture chamber. But, I do blow up. I will say its been a long time since I have blown up. Maybe its the writing that has calmed my edge, I don't know. I've been here since November and I can say I've not had a blow up since I've been here.

Hunter, this is why I chose to write like this. Sometimes people have things all bottled up. On one hand, this is a place to escape real life and what not, but on the other hand, this is also an outlet for people like us. People that have a story to tell. I figure if I open up a little bit and lower my shield just a little, maybe some of you will. You did, Rebel did. It's a big weight off the shoulders sometimes to let things out. Even at the risk of looking like a fool.

Fact is, she does love me. Always will. Its just that her heart has more room in it to love others, than I do in mine.

Ann, I don't mind that you went off topic, haha. If anything I've written since yesterday has inspired you to express yourself, your REAL self, then that's all that matters.

The moral of the story is simple. We all have a story. Tell it. Let it out. I have a life story I've always wanted to tell. Maybe someday, I'll let you all see all of the man behind Sebastian Duke. Not just bits and pieces. Many of you would be shocked. It certainly wasn't the good life.