[WARNiNG: The following is long. Very, very long... I apologize in advance. :3 ]

I just now FINALLY read this, as I've been busy doing stuff all over the forums, and I've only just begun, BUT-- thank you. ^.^ And I totally felt for the character, cuz... well, for one thing, the reason I stopped writing three years ago is cuz my ex, who I was with for five years, broke up with me. Over the phone, to be with someone else. And it literally broke me apart...

I felt as if writing was the reason she left, because I spent so much time in e-fedding... from 2000 to the year it happened, 2010... and I wrote song lyrics and poetry as well... and I felt, maybe she was tired of feeling second to a hobby. So... I gave it up after she left me. I felt like that entire decade had been wasted... but slowly, thanks to people who I've talked with over the past three years, I've realized-- the only way it would be wasted is if I were to allow that to be the end of it. I'm back.

And I'm more focused than ever before.

Now, I honestly Believe the main reason she left is because of how girly iAm... and she wanted a "real man". And she found one... but I found a gal that thinks my femininity is "Adorable" as she would put it... the thing is, I've driven her off twice now, due to my attitude... due to not taking my meds as I should, staying up for two days at a time, and barely eating [I went from 290 to 150]...

... my attitude has become a total wreck over the years. But... my personality is what she was drawn to. Me being me, when I'm taking care of myself and at 100%. Annnd... she wanted me to move there. I've lived in the same small, Oklahoman town since I was born. And she wanted me to move there, to Nebraska...

... she's blocked me again, after I became really negative after neglecting myself again... the first time, she said she wasn't a "suicide hotline", and she couldn't deal with the way I talk about myself and how depressed I am all the time... she already has so much to deal with, and my negativity only made things worse... she gave me another chance, and things went really well for a while...

... till I did the same thing... whenever I stay up for extended periods of time, don't eat or drink, and don't take my meds... I change. My attitude changes... My mood switches from beautiful to terrible... it's what's driven away so many people. But her best friend, who, by proxy, kind of became mine, told me I should still move there. Not for Hannah [the gal]... but for myself.

I still live with my mom and godmom, as I always have, mainly due to the fact that my check helps a great deal, and I dunno what would happen to them without me... but Sadie [the friend] said that I need to start focusing on me... I'm 26, and I need to start living... and I want to... and iAm. I'm hoping that, maybe, if I take care of myself before the move, when I get there, Hannah may be friends with me...

... when we would talk on Skype, face to face, it was nigh impossible for me to become negative. Her voice... and especially, her smile... she's magic. But... when I talk to people through text... it's so much easier for me to allow my emotions to get the best of me... especially the negative ones.

... annnywayz... I talk far, far too fuxxing much, and iAm sorry about this "wall of text"... it's just that when I get started talking about something, both on and offline, it's hard for me to stop... But that roleplay truly made me think of not only Crystal [my ex, whose name is ironic given you mentioned the Jim Henson film ^.^ ] ... as well as HJQ, and now, perhaps even moreso than Crys...

Despite only knowing her for a little over half a year... I grew to love Hanny much more than I did Crys in the five years I was with her... she is different. She proclaims herself to be "evil"... she's very unique, and she matches with me more than anyone I've ever met... She was the Harley Quinn to my Joker. Literally... Mr. J is one of my influences for donning paint, along with Sting and Jeff Hardy... and Hannah told me Harley has always been her fave BatMan character.

She said she dreamed of taking over the world... and she inspired me to begin a comic book. $inister $hane and "The Punk Princess", Hardcore Hannah... two supervillains hell-bent on global domination. ... Like Pinky & The Brain. ^.^ And despite driving her off again... I'm still going to finish it. Whereas Crystal, in a way, extinguished my passion for writing... Hannah reignited the flame. And I do Believe, if it hadn't been for her, I'd have never of returned to e-fedding...

And I feel more comfortable being myself around her than I do even my mom and godmom. Crystal merely put up with my being girly... HJQ literally loved it. She loved me for me... and since Sadie told me to go through with it... I'm still moving there. I'm hoping things turn around for me when I do...

I'm sorry for giving my "life story", I know you don't have time to read all of that... my mind races. And I talk. A lot... I'm sorry. >__< But, I'm going to take you up on that offer... I think I may actually have an idea for a little something... I'll pm you in a bit... and, thank YOU for the kind words, darlin'. <3

~ $

p.s. -- here is Fairuza, Dorothy from 'R.t.O.' in the other role I adore her for... Nancy, from The Craft. A scene [my FAVE... 'HE'S SORRRYYY?!?!'] --



-- and a wonderful music video someone put together. LOVE the song, and it all fits together so well --



-- you seem like you would love this film just as much I do. It's one of my faves to watch with my mom... she's actually the person that got me into wrestling, as my grandfather took her to the wrestling events when she was a kid. Her fave was Gorgeous George. ^.^ She's wicked cool as far as moms go...

Anywayz, expect the pm quite soon. Thank you for the offer of friendship. I may be needing it. ^__^