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Mandii Rider · (08-26-2020)

Oh, wonderful, this week I get to play in a cage with not one but two Harley Quinn wannabes. Why exactly was I tossed into a match with the Harley alter egos? Because Jenny can't keep her emotions in check? I have better things to do than play dollhouse but here I am stuck in the never-ending Jenny Myst hell loop again.

Alright Jenny, you want to keep with the same old same old then let's play the same game I've won a million times by now. How does it feel to only be on top when you take cheap shots? How does it feel to only put me on my back when it's turned? You've had so much time between my absences to change but you're still the same naive little girl each and every time I come back. I get it, I do, ever since I knocked you off that pedestal you were on you've held a grudge. I took the very meaning of your existence away and ever since then you've been a pain in my ass. However, after all this time any sane person would get a clue and move on until, oh, but not Jenny. You refuse to see the truth, I'm better than you, and instead of working toward the goal of getting better, you keep hitting repeat then pitch a bitch fit when the ending doesn't change. Do you honestly believe that things will ever change when you refuse to change first? I continue to grow and prosper while you can't even seem to plant your damn roots in the ground. Oh, but I'm sure you're full of excuses and I'm sure you'll list them in order like you've done a million times. How about you start working on fixing yourself because you're a broken record and anything you have to say I've already heard it from you more times than once.

You know what, let me help you find a place to start. Your emotions, they screw you over every time. That's why you decided to attack me, isn't it? Your emotions got in the way and you decided to act on them like you always do. Because you can't separate your emotions from your career you've once again entered a war you know you can't win. I never wanted this, I never fucking asked for this, I didn't want you hanging onto my coattails for the rest of my career but here you are once again gripping on for dear life. The difference between now and before though, you aren't pissed off because I took your championship away, oh no, now I took the only other thing that brought any meaning to your pathetic excuse of a wrestling career, Chris. The funny thing is I told you, woman to woman, what he was doing. I told you he didn't give two shits about you and what he was doing behind your back and you chose to ignore it. So tell me, Jenny, did you attack me because you actually had feelings for the man or because I exposed you for the fool you are, again? After all, you attacked me and not him, says a lot doesn't it? Instead of being pissed off at the man who you trick yourself into believing would be faithful you went after the woman who straight up told you she was the other woman. You were embarrassed, you were furious, and once again you were sad that I was right. Now, instead of keeping your emotions in check and moving on, which we all knew you'd never do because you can't be the bigger woman, you decided once again to pick a fight with me. Bravo, you're still as predictable as you ever were.

Emotions are your biggest flaw in the majority of situations you get yourself into. You react before you think and once again it's got you into a whole lotta shit. Don't get me wrong, I put a lot of emotion into my wrestling. However, I separate my personal emotions from my career and that's one reason you came out the fool in the end. Not once did I ever step in the ring with you while I was Chris's dirty little secret and layout my insecurities on you like you've done ever since the beginning. Not once did I take my jealousy or hatred out on you because wrestling you was never about Chris or even proving I was the better wrestler, it was just business to me. While you've held this personal vendetta against me for taking your dear sweet championship away and led with that every match, I've always beat you because I saw our matches as simply what they were, a fight, and paycheck. I'll admit, there were times I thought I was playing the role of the fool behind the scenes. After all, I was the dirty little secret. However, I never let the emotions attached to what was going on behind closed doors affect me in the ring. That's why I come out on top and the personal hatred you feel for me continues to grow. You lead with emotion while I lead with ability and mindfulness.

You like to project insecurities onto every woman you face. It's always all about looks, personality, shit, you've even tried to use my daughter as a way to get under my skin saying she was going to end up like you in the end. Don't you see? You've never been one to focus on the pure ability or skill someone has in the ring. You always point out the flaws you have in other people and why? Because wrestling has never been about "just business" as you've said a million times. Wrestling has been your way to stay in high school and feel better about yourself because when you look in the mirror you can't stand the person looking back at you. The paycheck isn't what keeps you wrestling, the thrill of the fight isn't what keeps you in the ring, admit it, it's the insults that keep flying out of your mouth that keeps you here. Me taking your championship had nothing to do with the loss per se but it had everything to do with the fact I took the only thing away from you that you liked about yourself. Ever since then you can't fill the void and you've made me your number one enemy out of jealousy. I mean, seriously Jenny, it's just fucking sad you won't let go of two dead championships. Then again I guess it makes sense, after all, they are just as useless as the woman who carries them around.

Now, understand that when I say you're jealous of me I don't mean you're jealous of my looks or even of the fact that I'm with Chris, you're jealous of the fact I am everything you never grew up to be. I've never needed anyone in my life, ever. I've stood on my own two feet since day one and you never could. You rode in on the Chaos horse and it gave you some elevation but who would Jenny Myst have been had she come to the XWF on her own? A nobody. You would have been long gone if it wasn't for the little push you got from Chris. No one would have paid attention to you and because you had a lack of attention you would have moved onto greener pastures where you could get the attention you were denied as a young girl. I made a career, no, a Legacy of my own against the odds, and have busted my ass since the age of 16 to be where I am today. You can't say the same and it makes you furious. I took the hardships and turned them into opportunities in the end whereas you hit a roadblock and all you can do is stomp your foot and pitch a massive bitch fit. You never learned how to stand up and take charge. You never learned how to be independent, so when you look at a woman who is, your insecurities just start flowing out of your mouth; you can't help it. Most of all, I believe the biggest reason you hate me so much is because I know exactly who the hell I am. Jenny has no clue who she is, I mean, one week she's a valet to Chris Chaos, the next week she's a wrestler, the next week she's the manager of Savage, oh, and the week after that she some talk show host. Jenny, pick a fucking passion and stick to it for god's sake. You're like a little girl who changes what she wants to be when she grows up every time you ask her. Maybe, if you stuck to actually trying to be better in the ring instead of just trying to show your face off every chance you can, you could actually beat me! I know I'm not the prettiest bitch in the back. I'm fully aware that my personality isn't all sunshine and rainbows like you pretend yours to be so you can get extra air time with a stupid talk show. However, you know what I am Jenny? A fighter, a wrestler, and a fucking warrior. I know who I am and that's why I'm so good at what I do. That's why you always lose. You're still just eye candy, it's been that way since you walk Chris to the ring, it's never going to change.

Problem number two that you need to work on Jenny, you put forth into all the wrong things. I understand from a young age you were taught the only thing you were good for is sex and being pretty. After all, daddy dearest sold you out to cover his debt right? He taught you that if you aren't pretty or if you couldn't satisfy a man in the bedroom you were useless. Now you have this twisted way of thinking that if a woman isn't eye candy, if she isn't in touch with her sexual side on a 24-hour basis, then she's useless and can't amount to anything. After all, that's what you attack in all your promos, isn't it? I'm going to drop a reality bomb on you Jenny so be prepared...Sex and sexual appeal won't make you happy in life and it sure as hell won't build a legacy in the wrestling world. Shocking I know right? In the real world, pretty will take you places, sure, but for only so long. Pretty on the outside fades away Jenny, so what are you going to do when that happens? I mean, pretty didn't help you keep the bombshell when it was an actual championship here. Pretty didn't help you beat me. Hell, pretty didn't even keep Chris around did it? Honestly, Jenny, it's time to see that you really are pretty, pretty fucking worthless.

Problem number three, you drag everyone in your life down. You've held everyone in your life back from Chris, to me, to even yourself. You held Chris back for the longest time. You were always more focused on yourself and what you wanted that you never stopped to see if there was a way for not only you but also Chris to rise above everyone here in XWF. You were too selfish to even attempt to see any other way than a way that would make you look good. Want an example? You took over Savage and made it all about you. Where was Chris in all that? What did you ever do for Chris? Nothing. You were always there to get in the way or ruin something. You held me back week after week with your petty vendetta. You got obsessed with this desire, no, the need to beat me and management banked on it by pitting us against each other week after week. Instead of taking a break and learning through other matches or hell even the losses I gave to you, you just wouldn't stop leeching off me and my career. I could have had other opportunities to grow bigger here in XWF. I could have gone on to bigger and better things but you were always there weighing me down, pulling me under. I guess to some degree you got what you wanted, right Jenny? You made my career here in XWF a living hell and kept me from better things but ask yourself at what cost? You held me back but you also held yourself back with your grudges, your pettiness, and your insecurities. Chris cut ties with you and is no longer being held down and I'm going to do the same thing in this match. This is it Jenny, I'm tired of the petty crap and dealing with your problems. If you want to live in your hatred and jealousy by all means don't let me stop you but I refuse to allow you to pull me down to the same level. I'm done Jenny, you're not my problem anymore. Move on.

Oh, but before I move on, let me make one thing perfectly clear: I'm not into doing this whole catfight bullshit over a guy. That's highschool crap that you started Jenny and I'm putting to an end this week. If you want to fight for his affection, to make him care about you again, go for it but getting your ass repeatedly kicked by me isn't going to get you there.

Don't worry Ash I didn't forget about you. As you could probably already guess Jenny and I have history, a lot of it. So, if you want to take on the cancer that is Jenny Myst be my guest, please, take her off my hands because I'm tired of playing the same game with her. However, let me warn you now this shit show is not one you want to guest star in. What I'm really trying to say here is in the end you'll just be collateral damage to me if you get in the way.

So what exactly is there to say about you Ash Quinn? Aside from you look like the rejected new 52 Harley Quinn but I'm sure that's what you were going for. I can already tell you're going to be one of those, "I'm not like the other wrestlers" type of people so save it. That little psyche split that you've got going, yeah seen it and the majority of the time it's fake. The promos that look like they should be in a black and white movie that involves cops? Been there, done that, nothing new. The whole, "I'm going to break you physically, emotionally, and psychologically," blah blah blah bullcrap? Overdone, overused, unoriginal. I have always wondered why people with split personalities in the wrestling world usually have one personality that is bubbly and cute and the other that is always so dark and serious. I mean, where are the wrestlers that have dissociative identity disorder and have one identity that is completely normal and another that is a flamboyant gay guy named something cool like Ichabod who doesn't want to wrestle but just wants to be fabulous? Now that would be original and interesting. You Ash, you're just boring.

Here's another problem with you, you're a follower. Yes, I have been keeping up with the cute little chit chat you got going on with Jenny and I've watched how simple-minded you are. First of all, if you make it so easy for Jenny to get under your skin you stand zero chance in hell of being anything other than a rookie not just here in XWF but in wrestling as a whole. Second of all, maybe come up with your own insults instead of stealing someone else's and running with it? Shit like that makes me think you're just going to hide behind me this whole match and I'm sorry to tell you that if you can't think or do for yourself you'll be eaten alive here.

Unfortunately, I've never heard of Ash Quinn before, ever. I mean the name is relatively unreactive and I've heard it many times but as for actually seeing any type of wrestling from you personally, no never. I know, I know- you're new to the big wrestling scene and you just now finally pulled your big girl panties up and you're ready to take on the big leagues. Personally, I don't think you need to be in the big leagues but rather on a coach in some psychiatrist's office talking through your childhood trauma. The wrestling world has enough broken and psychologically stunted people in it, it really doesn't need another one of whatever you are. If your main goal here is just to hurt people and break them down so they can feel the psychological torment you go through on a day to day basis this isn't the career path for you. If you get off on breaking people mentally this is definitely not the place for you, really, because most of the people here are already off their rocker and will chew you up and spit you out.

Let's talk about this high pain tolerance that seems to be a go-to for people who like to claim to be "unbreakable". It's bullshit, plain and simple. Wrestling isn't like getting a little tattoo or a piercing. If I had a penny for every person who claimed they had a high pain tolerance I could retire ten times over. See Ash, when you openly claim to have a high tolerance for pain and claim to be unbreakable you put a target on your back, a big one. Why? Because if it is actually true then it means you're a nice little challenge for someone, if it's not, well, it's fun to torture those kinds of people and show them for the frauds they are. For me, I just like proving people wrong, it's honestly one of those twisted fun aspects of wrestling for me.

Moving on to the fact you have no fear. Well hunny, this week you'll learn what fear really is. When I say I will break you in ways you can't imagine I mean it. Do you see what I've done to Jenny? How much of a mind fuck I've done? Go back and watch some of our matches and you'll figure out pretty quickly I'm good at breaking someone mentally and physically.

Now I know I should take you seriously and everyone has to start somewhere but you aren't even vaguely threatening to me. The way I see it, you're caught in the crossfire of a battle that has been going on for a while now between me and Jenny. Actually, you're more of a distraction for Jenny and just a waste of my time. See, I've been doing this going on 13 years and while I love seeing fresh faces in the wrestling world there's just something about this vibe of, "I'm not like the other girls," that you're putting off that's just putting me off. Get it? Now, you could go into this match being cocky and pretending you know what you're doing or you can take this little tidbit of advice I'm going to give you and run with it the same way you ran with Madison's STD joke to Jenny. Don't come into a wrestling federation as a rookie believing you're god's gift to wrestling. Don't believe that every match you enter you will walk out completely dominating every aspect of your opponent because you won't. This week is just one example of having the odds stacked against you and while it'll be cute to see you trying to make a mark taking on two people who are established here it's only going to end badly if you trot in on a high horse.

I’m back and honestly, I feel better than ever. Things have changed drastically, clearly, and things are about to get much more interesting. Every Time I’ve found myself back in the ring I’ve always wanted to leave a mark, to make sure my name wasn’t forgotten in every federation I stepped foot in. That’s no longer my priority here in XWF, I’ve already accomplished that, so now, now it’s time to just have some fun.

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